Racism

We live in an age where we make a joke about everything. Sarcasm and cheap humor floods everything we do. There is no respect. How do we fight this? How do we get it across our heads and hearts that making fun of someone because they're Jewish, or African American is not ok. How do we do it? What would Jesus have done?

God is good

God is good. He is good all the time do you know that? Why is that so hard to grab a hold of.The problem isn't on His end it's on ours. We're just not aware of it. We're so engulfed in our own complaining, and circumstances and garbage GAH who cares!!!!! God is good! And He is always with us and He promises us all that and some. We never have any reason to get down. God is good and He is working all things for our good no matter how crappy it may seem. Yes I am writing this as things are great but I'm gonna use it to look back on when things seem like garbage. To remind me that God is good. Say what, when??! ALL THE TIME. It's just a matter of how aware we are. Are you aware?

Throw it Away?

In Luke 14:38 Jesus says Whoever does not forsake all that he has cannot be my disciple. Whoever does not forsake all he has. What does this mean? I by no means have a grasp of this passage or of the scriptures as a whole for that matter. In fact after this weekend I realize that I really know nothing. Growing up I was taught to believe that to live for Christ was sacrifice. You had to give up everything you had. This is obviously a big thing to ask. Who wants to give up everything? So basically over the past 2 years God has been doing a work in me. God has been doing work. I've thrown everything away. I've thrown away my friendships, my passions, my personality, my journals, my memories. Now I still don't know if this was all necessary. Maybe I went a little overboard. As I learned this weekend I have been living under law. It's so much easier to throw things away, to not care. Its all rubbish, scubalon anyway. But when is it too far? I don't think you can ever go too far for Jesus. Did I make mistakes, did I cause hurt that was unnecessary. No doubt. But isn't that what God's grace is for? It covers our failures. He's the great recycler. All the things that we throw out, He is able to REDEEM and give us value. So did I go too far? Ya. Do I regret it? Nope. All things I count as RUBBISH, SCUBALON, GARBAGE to knowing Christ. Now its time for me to throw away all the rubbish, scubalon, and garbage in my heart. Please dear Lord, get it out, get it out. Create in me a pure, sincere, clean heart. Thankyou that I am a story of the REDEEMED. Thankyou for the cross. Thankyou for the Blood of Jesus.

Here We Go

Why am I writing? I am writing because I want to begin to tap into the gifts that God has created me with. I believe writing is one of these gifts. Last year I struggled tremendously with writing. I wanted to give it up because I felt that I just wasn't good enough. However as my mom reminded me, it is usually those things that you struggle with the most that are what God has given you your greatest gifts in. Thus writing has served as a model to break me from my perfectionist mindset and practice. I am by no means where I want to be in writing. But the only way to get better is to practice. I plan on having God use me to change the world. If I'm gonna do that I'm gonna need to know how to write. Through this I hope to develop the gift God has given me. I want to become a better writer for God's glory. Ya gotta start somewhere. There's no turning back. No lefts, no writes, just straight ahead. Forgetting what is behind and straining towards what is ahead. This is for real.